sitting through
these long, drawn out classes
nothing happens
but time passes
looking around the room
my gaze is empty
seeing nothing
dreaming something
for what im
hearing ,
seeing ,
dreaming
is indiscribable
because im hearing your voice ,
seeing your face ,
and dreaming of you
my whole world ,
my love
my dear
you are so lovely
your ever to blame
things constantly change
overloading my brain
yet you are what keeps me
from going insane
my safe harbor
from the reckless , lonely sea
you capture me
protecting me from lifes' tragidy
i'm not oblivious to the worlds misery
but all i can think of
is my eternity
with you my love,
my destiny
pitch black
can not see
anything in front of me
all alone
in the forest
just a line
from lifes' chorus
for this is it
the frightful end
with no lover
offering a helping hand
they come looking
to find me
but i'm to strung up
in tragidy
i hear sounds
they'll be here soon
although this is my eclipse
i'll never make the new moon
we hug ' em
we squeeze 'em
we hold them all dear
until we come of age
when they all disappear
we hide them in closets
and under our beds
praying to God
nothing will be said
although some are pretty
and some are soft
the ones most precious
were given to us
all have been used
for a shoulder to cry on
and a good listener
anything to make us feel better
so when we age
it's inevitable
we'll take them out of hideing
to place them in a line
all happy to gloat
that these teddies are mine
roses are red
violets are blue
this is the rhyme
we hear through and through
you'd think humanity
could find a way
to confess there affection
in a meaningful display
although there relentless devotion
and undying disiers
will be expressed
soully through flowers
on one event
one special occasion
we act like clockwork
carelessly following tradition
thinking we've completed our mission
but try to be different
try to be new
not only for her
but do this for you
for every day
with your soulmate
is destiny's date
for Valentines day
just living
barily breathing
can't believe
it's you i'm seeing
days go by
weeks fade away
i'm left here
in dismay
we held hands
showed affection
both feeling
a connection
things changed
for the worst
i can't tell
it just hurts
without you
nothing to do
you always said
i should die in bed
while i lay peacefuly , asleep
although lately , all i do is weep
the best way to end my life
is with this sharp , shiny knife
tears stream down my face
tonight im finally going to end this race
i used to have fun
used to be so free
but thats all changed
since you left me
now i can't eat
can't sleep
can't breath
the memory of you is crippleing
infectious like a disease
you picture inside my head
you were always my best friend
now i have nothing
but my halluctionations left
and these alone
are driving me to my death
never again
never again
i fight these words
it can't be the end
our love was so real
our love was so true
or was it my blood that called to you
you said we'd be together
that we'd never be apart
but today is the day
you shatter my heart
you think i'll be better
that i'll move on
and forget you
but that's not true
for i still love you
it was pouring rain
and still you came
it was black as night
but you concord the fight
there was sharp cracks of thunder
yet you did not wonder
why you came all the distance
just to see me
i was in shock
you grasped me gently
i couldn't understand
so you grabed my hand
you looked into my eyes
you could tell i was melting inside
i told you i didn't deserve it
although i have to admit
if you had just called
my heart would have been mauled
so you simply smiled
and pulled me close
you were comforting me
for when with you , i had nothing to flee
then you raised you head
and quietly stated
that you wanted to come
for i was
its white as a ghost
yet dark as night
there is nothing out there
but the fear is still here
i am alone
yet i can feel its prescence
the silence is eerie
cold
and frightning
then i realize
im strapped down
chained to the ground
i look to be smiling
but inside im crying
for i know you'll do it again
FUCK what is it with you men ?
you treat me like a hore
but i keep comeing back for more
whenever i protest .. that i am smart
you threaten to rip out my heart
i start to break down
you begin to frown
you begin to draw near
but only because you can sence my fear
you pull out a knife
you scream"your a disgrace to all life"
you start to freak out
when i dont disagree
you start to yell "you will BEG me"
but i dont make a sound , i will never plea
you are completely enraged now
we are both loseing , but how ?
in the end i sacrafice my life
but you wi
he doesnt know
he doesnt care
i sit alone and simply stare
i try to hold back my emotions
i try to hold back the tears
they come creeping out anyway
but no one hears
i tried to tell him before
but now "we" is no more
i know that i hurt him
i hurt us both without realizing
to see him suffer though , is mortifying
now he passes me by
i wonder how , no WHY ?
how could i have done that to him ?
why did i say what i did ?
i pushed him past the brink
i didnt have time to think
i just have the knot to tie
then it will be my time to die
i am wollowing in self pity
i am dieing in dismay
but all that i have left to say
is that
i look to see
but you are not with me
you are with her
and she is the one i can not concur
everyday i wake up thinking of you
i wonder if your thinking of me
but for that there is no possibility
for she has consumed you, giving you immortality
friends ask me " are you depressed ?"
they try to make me happy, but have no success
i can't stop thinking of you
but when i do , my world turns shades of black and blue
it makes me free
to think that your happy
but it makes me sad, it makes me angry
to think the way you are with her can never be with me
i have tried to shut you out
but there is nothing left to doubt
you control me
everything i think , everything i do
it's because of you
my life is termoil
but only because it's true
it was supposed to be a secrete
but now you know i love you
now everything is ruined
everything went wrong
now im left standing here
thinking i have no reason to go on
with out you
life's not worth going thru
we believed in each other
we payed attention
we were the only ones who actually cared for each other
but now we dont talk
we cant even look at each other
we took everything that we both stood for
and seperatly turn them against ourselves
we never cared what others thought
yet there ricules and sarcasme
destroyed us
now its only us who pay for there opinions
we're the ones who bare the pain
now all we have left of each other
are our memories
for we are no longer
friends
or lovers
for we are merley
two lonly strangers
smart or stupid
tall or short
happy or sad
naive or deceitful
these are what we judge by
they are superfical
yet extreamly critical
for even the best person
WILL go down
they will drownd
in rejection
and ridicule
over time they all think your hatred will fade
but it still lives
it dwells with in you
in your heart
and your soul
although some day
you will win
you will put them
where they once put you
then they will be
the lonley ones
with no sympathy
with no aid
with no place to hide
but under the shade
of everyones casting hatred
caused by judgements
its white as a ghost
yet dark as night
there is nothing out there
but the fear is still here
i am alone
yet i can feel its prescence
the silence is eerie
cold
and frightning
then i realize
im strapped down
chained to the ground
it was pouring rain
and still you came
it was black as night
but you concord the fight
there was sharp cracks of thunder
yet you did not wonder
why you came all the distance
just to see me
i was in shock
you grasped me gently
i couldn't understand
so you grabed my hand
you looked into my eyes
you could tell i was melting inside
i told you i didn't deserve it
although i have to admit
if you had just called
my heart would have been mauled
so you simply smiled
and pulled me close
you were comforting me
for when with you , i had nothing to flee
then you raised you head
and quietly stated
that you wanted to come
for i was
never again
never again
i fight these words
it can't be the end
our love was so real
our love was so true
or was it my blood that called to you
you said we'd be together
that we'd never be apart
but today is the day
you shatter my heart
you think i'll be better
that i'll move on
and forget you
but that's not true
for i still love you
i used to have fun
used to be so free
but thats all changed
since you left me
now i can't eat
can't sleep
can't breath
the memory of you is crippleing
infectious like a disease
you picture inside my head
you were always my best friend
now i have nothing
but my halluctionations left
and these alone
are driving me to my death
If Apathy Had Monetary Value.. by SarcasmPersonified, literature
Literature
If Apathy Had Monetary Value..
Do you see the sorrow in my eyes?
Can you hear my silent cries?
As I lay cold and bleeding on the floor.
Drowning in misery instigated by you,
I pour self loathing and repulsion.
I no longer wish to be this person
That you so adamantly despise.
Like petals of a wilted rose,
I fall piece by piece into shadows.
Unable to change myself; live with a lie.
And I try so hard to be what I'm not.
I try so hard...
But no matter what I do,
I always fall short of the mark.
You deny despite my obvious effort.
My inflicted schizophrenia to no avail.
I guess I'll never be good enough for you.
You; the cause of my demise.
I know I'm not p
Contented Yearning by Young-Romantic-Poets, literature
Literature
Contented Yearning
My heart begins to race
at the thought of your embrace.
Whenever eyes are closed;
I only see your face.
How I long to touch your skin;
every place a dream has been.
Tender kisses to express
all the love I feel within.
Pink and purple were my favourite colours
Now they are a constant reminder
Of scars and bruises where you hurt me
Where I hurt myself
Wrap it up in bandages
Long since crusted over
With my bloody lust
To be rid of you
Morning breaks, dried to my skin
These wounds beneath this thin frame
I use to be game enough
To tell you 'no'
Now I don't have the voice
You long since cut it from me
Now it lies between your underwear
In a jar I stare and I'm screaming
For once, love me like you should
I have the best,
Yet the worst,
Every thing that I could have wished for,
At my feet,
But everything I have gained,
I have seemed to have lost.
It seems as if,
Everything I have ever gotten,
Had
Wished for,
Wanted,
Has just gone away,
Disappeared to nothing.
It seems,
As if I have been living,
Living my life,
Always gaining,
Then so suddenly losing.
I just wish,
Wish it would stop,
So then things could just be,
Normal,
But then again,
Nothing is what,
Is what it seems.
In the end, no ones there to help you.
through it all, they pretend to like you.
you've gotta remember who you are,
you are your own, and they can't change that.
so stand strong, even if you're wrong.
they'll respect it, and if they don't...
you won't...need them, in the end.
just stand strong, you know they're wrong.
for this is the time.
and this is the place.
take your stand,
you won't lose face.
and they're remember..
you were yours and yours alone,
right,
up,
too,
the,
end.
Do anything and Everything by Tears-of-Emo, literature
Literature
Do anything and Everything
The day before last
The day before everything
A day of reason
A day of taken opportunity
Stopped by the fall
Stopped by the call
Should've seen it sooner
Should've missed my chances
Through a life of chance
Through a heart of guilt
I feel your pain
I feel my desire
From the first
Till the next
I'll be dreaming
I'll be waiting
In this life of chance
In this scared heart
I feel this
I feel its true
Mistaken
For what I needed
For what I wanted
But I'm not
I'm not wrong
So I'll take my chance
And give you my heart
I feel I can
I feel I will
It's yours
Break it if you need
Break me If you want
I don't care
I don'
Current Residence: Chesterville , Ontario Favourite genre of music: goth/metal , or anything that had good lyrics that will stick in my head MP3 player of choice: BLACK Ipod Personal Quote: i can read your thoughts , i know your most secrete fears and darkest disiers !
Favourite Movies
AmityVille Horror , When a Stranger Calls , 10 Things I Hate About You
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Marilyn Manson , HIM , System of a Down , Reliant K
summer vaca took so long to get here and now its already half way over ... the good news is though it's my birthday in 3 days ! i cant wait ,,, we have already started car shopping and have pretty much decided upon one,, therefor leaving me very busy with little time to post anything new . also i have been trying different styles and have fabricated little worth mentioning and haven't made much progress. however when i finally do accomplish something less then horrid i'll post it !
hey guys !
i havent been around in quite a while but im not dead , just busy . i added some work that i have been messing around with in the last little while ... other then that nothing much is new .. well hope your all great !
thanks for commenting on everything !!
thanks Marissa !
hey everyone !
Its finally halloween ! Im going to a party later tonight with my boyfriend and a couple of his friends .. it should be fun ! well i havent written anything lately..was little preoccupied with school .. i just finshied 2 mid terms and have another on friday ..i have completed math and history waiting on spainish...i am also takeing art which is awsome and there arent any tests ! well thats pretty much my life write now .
HAPPY HALLOWEEN !
Marissa
i was just reading all of your poetry and i just have to say that all of it is really beautiful, sweet and sorrowful. I know exactly how it feels.
i think you need a hug